Idea for wedding bands. Thoughts? Left is for X, right is for me.

You are worth it

X and I were talking about our “wedding” plans and I mentioned that my parents said he had to say the Shahada at some point and then this happened:

me: but obviously i’m no practicing muslim
x: hahahaha
x: ok i get it, I also bookmarked the pronunciation from the wikipedia page so I can practice.
x: you are worth me becoming muslim

WHAAAT? So sweet! So, so sweet. Endless sighing. (:

Long overdue life update!

It’s been a while so I’m just going to go ahead and say what’s been going on in my life. These events are so huge to me that there’s really no time to dilly dally with introductions and what have you. So…

1. My grandmother passed away a few weeks ago. It was inevitable and sudden all at the same time. She was 91, healthy and lucid and then she wasn’t. Someone that I always thought would be there just wasn’t any more. I cried for her but I cried more for my mother who is so heart broken that she couldn’t be there or do more to help during this time. They were best friends. I never, ever want to hear my mother cry like that again.

2. X and I are moving back to my home town. We were already talking about it very seriously but with my grandmother’s death, our plans got pushed way up. He told me to go be with my mom because she needs me and that he would take care of everything in New York. I bought a one way ticket and have been house hunting and working from my parents’ place ever since. X will join me at the end of April.

We wanted to be close to family and friends already and live our lives instead of working to survive. Why keep telling ourselves that we have to make New York dollars to then make a life when we were barely paying our bills? When would our plans realistically come to fruition? With the work we do, we can make it anywhere. We’ve got clients that give us work on a consistent enough basis that we can actually have lives if we lived somewhere else.

I will personally miss New York a lot, but I know I will actually have enough money to fly up there and enjoy myself as a visitor instead of a resident.

3. We are going to get married. Soon. If you asked me how long we’ve been engaged for, well, I couldn’t tell you. We decided that this is what we want. Does that qualify as engagement?

We’re not going to have a huge wedding, just a court marriage. Why spend all that money on sitting on a stage in front of relatives you don’t know for three days when you could go on an awesome vacation/honeymoon? We will have a nice dinner and maybe an after party for close relatives and friends, though.

I am so happy this is happening. I feel so lucky to have X in my life when I used to think that I’ll never find anyone that will love me or accept me. To know that he is understanding, artistic, thoughtful, handsome, funny, faithful and not jealous. He is everything I could ever want. How amazing is he for just telling me to go to my mom when she needs me most?

4. Yes, I told my parents and they took it very well. My mom was in shock but with everything going at this point in her life, who would blame her. My brother thought I was lying at first but I told him how serious I was and he said he’s fine with it as long as I am happy. I waited forever to tell my dad but when I finally did, he sat in silence for a couple of minutes and then said he was happy for me. That was huuuuuuuuuuuuuuge. Yes, it merits that many “U”s.

5. I got Netflix again! Yeah, instant viewing!!!

Huh. I’m surprised I kept it this condensed. I guess my brain just wanted me to get it all out there so I can get back to work. So here we are and here I go. I am still ALL BUSINESS ALL THE TIME, but now I know that I can afford to take a break here and there and it won’t cost me food for a week. YES!!!

I’m not editing this so… Sorry for typos and all that.